Monday, December 29, 2014

All Up In The Air...... Including my Bottom..

Dear Sir,

I know that I am not required to call you Sir but I do so out of respect, especially when I know we are in a punishment time.  Yes, I have had three weeks to think about the mistakes that I made.  I can honestly say I have not stressed about it.  Am I anxious?  Yes.  Am I looking forward to the punishment?  Not really.  Will I be glad for the reconnection?  Yes.

My concerns are different from times in the past when I knew that punishment was looming on the horizon.  In times past, my fear revolved around the pain.  That it would hurt more than I could stand.  Or that the PTSD monster would rear it's ugly head and make a mess of something meant to restore and reconnect.

This time, there is none of that.  This time, I am aware and totally agree that what I did was so very wrong on so many levels.  My heart longs to make amends and be free of the guilt that I feel.  I desire to reconnect the line that I broke with deceit and disrespect of you and our relationship.  In my heart, I feel like this warrants a very intense spanking and I fear that I won't be able to submit or that I will do something or say something that causes you not to provide me with the level of correction I feel is necessary to make this right in my heart and between us.

You are my heart and I love you so very much.


  1. What a lovely and loving letter Dana. I am sure the Man will help you to submit and he will provide exactly what you he always has. I am so very proud of you my friend.

    Hugs and Blessings...

    1. Thanks my friend. It is hard and I'm not looking forward to it, but he is good and he is kind

  2. Wow! You sure do express exactly how I have felt. Great letter. I just love reading your blog and feeling so connected to what you feel.

    1. Thanks Blondie. It has been quite a journey to get here. I am not looking forward to what is to come, but as he said so kindly this morning... I am not without mercy. And he means it