Sunday, November 16, 2014

I Remember You

It has been a year Tuesday since you left this world behind.  You have been free from pain and won the fight of cancer, in a very different way than I would have liked. 

I am trying hard to wear the mantle you left for me in our family.  It's hard.  I still call your phone just to hear you voice on the message.  When things are hard and I need a friend, I still think that I need to talk to you.

I remember your laugh and how much joy you took in life and gave back.  I remember that you loved to play practical jokes and oh the parties we gave.

While I waited to see if Daddy was going to come out of his surgery, I felt you close to me, holding my heart as you always had. 

I know that as long as you are in my heart, part of you will remain, but I remember you.  I remember your love, your spirit, and I am better for it.

It has been almost a year since my Aunt died, and I miss her everyday.

Saturday, November 1, 2014

Yup That's Me....

Yup!!  That's me.  Poking my head out after a rather scary week.  Thank you all so much for your kind thoughts and prayers.  Those of you who sent me texts, sometimes later at night when you suspected I might be suffering from worry and fear...  You are the bestest!!!
We had some very scary moments over the last weekend and week.  There was a moment or two that I was not sure Daddy was going to make it, but God is good!!!  All the time.  Daddy made a miraculous turn around (doctor's words) and he was released from ICU on Thursday.  He is doing so amazingly well, that there is a possibility that he can come home on Monday, slim, but there none the less. 
The Man left on Wednesday as did my oldest son, who flew in on Friday.  Could I have done this by myself?  Yes, but you have no idea (well, maybe you do) how amazing it was to have The Man here.  Saturday Night, when I came home, so weary and scared to death and heart sick, he cuddled me up and said the most amazing thing.  He said, " Little Girl, I can't do a thing about what is going one with your Dad, but I can take care of you if you will let me.  When you need something, wake me and I will get it for you." 
Is he amazing or what?  My children have all rallied around not only my folks, but me.  My Pixie called me, and asked how things were, and I told her.  She said, "I am glad to know about my grands, but I was asking about my Mom.  I want to know how you are."  All of my sons gathered around, leaving notes on the white board telling me they love me.  My family is an amazing force.
So, today is Saturday, and well, I am taking the day off.  I talked with Daddy and he is good with me not going today.  I slept till 11am and I am going to read for a bit, and then think about laundry and my house.  After I think about it for a while, I may do something about it... :)