Wednesday, April 30, 2014

All KINDS of Animals....

Yup.. Yup... all kinds.. Let's see.. first of all.. I gotta new baby....  I love her...  Her name is LADY... I named her..

Photo: My new baby
Now... she is extra special.. cause she chewed the paddle...
I have a stuffed frog that is extra special.  The Man bought it for me when we had a terrible car accident.  I often hold it, to ease the tension in my shoulder when I sleep.  He woke in the middle of the night...  gasping.... THE DOG...  he thought I was strangling the dog..   ONLY, it was the FROG...  Yeah, I laughed.

And finally...  yeah.. I am waiting for The Man to get out of the shower, so we can have hot MONKEY sex... 

Sunday, April 27, 2014

Liebster Award.... Hey!! Cali picked me!!!

I have been nominated for the Liebster Award by Cali from Cali's mom.  Let me say... it was almost as exciting as the evening spent with The Man having hot monkey sex...  but I digress.

So..  Here are the rules:

Here are the rules:
1. Thank the person who nominated you and post a link to their blog on your blog.

2. Display the award on your blog-- by including it in your post and / or displaying it using a "widget" or "gadget".
3. Answer 11 questions about yourself which will be provided to you by the person who nominated you.
4. Provide 11 random facts about yourself.
5. Nominate 5 to 11 blogs you feel deserve this award, who have less than 1000 followers. (Note that you can ask the blog owner this since not all blogs display the widget that lets readers know this information.
6. Create a new list of questions for the blogger to answer.
7. List these rules on your post. Once you have written and published it, you then have to :
8. Inform people/blogs that you nominated that they have been nominated for the Liebster Award and provide a link for them to your post so they can learn about it (they Onot have heard of it!)

Here are the questions:

  • 1.  What kind of music do you listen to in the car?  And do you sing along?
  •      I listen to a little bit of everything, and OH yeah.. I sing along.. and loudly
  •  2.  Do you have an item of clothing that you love but your spouse/family hates?
  •          Not really.  My daughter calls my comfy clothes "soccer mom"
  •  3.  Favorite season?
  •          Spring
  •  4.  Favorite movie?
  •        Tombstone!!!  My entire family knows that if I am watching Tombstone, it has been a bad, bad   day and they need to steer clear.
  •  5.  Strangest food you ever tried?
  •       Beef Liver, and it was nasty then and it's nasty now!!!
  •  6.  Least favorite chore about the house?
  •       Putting away the laundry... 
  •  7.  Do you have a hobby?
  •        Oh yes!!  I love, love to garden and to read...
  •  8.  Favorite guilty pleasure?
  •        Oh well now...  Good Girl Spanking are so yummy!!!
  •  9.  Favorite vacation destination?  
  •        New Orleans for where I've been.  My greatest hope is to visit Ireland
  •  10. Favorite thing to eat?
  •         Fruit and chocolate... I know..I know...
  •  11.  What song takes you right back to high school?
  •          George Thoroughgood...  Bad to the Bone...

Random Facts:

1.  My favorite color is purple
2.  People would be shocked if they knew I was submissive down to the marrow of my bones
3.  I don't look my age.
4.  I have two kids with high functioning autism.  One I birthed the other I adopted.
5.  People would be shocked if they knew how easy it is to hurt my feelings.
6.  I think comfort is more important than sexy...  If you can have them both.. AWESOME
7.  I love playing card games.
8.  I have had the same best friend for 15 years, and she doesn't know I love to have my fanny blistered..
9.  I love when The Man knows what I'm thinking without telling him.
10.  My favorite place to be is my home.
11.  I love to entertain and am so happy I have a home to do it in.

Now... Whew.. Let me see...  I nominate:

Irishy from Loving me Always
Sadie from Sadie's secret Eat Pray Spank Love
Kenzie from Red Bottoms and TTWD

Now for my questions:

1.  How did you and your spouse/significant other meet?
2.  How is your favorite way to travel?
3.  Spanko or Spankno?
4.  Do  you like to read?  And if so, what kinds of books?
5.  Do you enjoy camping?  And if so, what is your idea of "roughing it"  (tent, camper, cabin, black and white TV?)
6.  If you could meet any one person who would it be and why?
7.  Dog or a cat person?
8.  What flavor ice cream do you hate?
9.  Did you bring this lifestyle to your mate or was it the other way around?
10.  Name one thing besides spanking that if people knew about you would be shocking?
11.  How old were you when you got  your first kiss?

Thanks Cali for nominating me..

Thursday, April 24, 2014

The Gods just must hate me...

Ya know.. sometimes ya just have to laugh..  Really.  It has been a wonderful time home with the Man.  We had a lovely Easter with 17 people at our house.  I dodged..  barely... a spanking due to nerves.  I have to say, I have come to this conclusion, I would rather him spank me than walk away from me.  When he walks away, in disgust or disappointment, it so much more painful in my heart than having my fanny spanked.  I feel so alone, and defeated when he walks away.  That is punishment with no forgiveness, no clean slate.  It's worse than sitting lightly.  Especially when I feel that I failed him in some way.

Sooooo.....  Tuesday I sent him this message...  I need to feel your dominance, and he replied...  I need to feel you submission.  It shocked me.  I mean I know that I need to feel him guiding me, leading, standing up for me, too me and all that.  I never, ever realized.  I mean I know he enjoys it, enjoys the benefits this lifestyle gives us because I am softer, and it gives me what I need, but I never realized he needs my submission, needs to feel me give way, soften to him, like I need his dominance.  It was quite a revelation.  Now, Wednesday... OH yes.. Wednesday...  DATE night.  There were to be NO children in the house.  WOOOHOOOO!!!  I was thinking all day, well till 1pm when I got the text..

There will be NO church tonight...  Enjoy time with your families...  REALLY?  I sent the text that said...  The gods must hate me.. and I got back... I am beginning to think so...

At 4pm.. I got this text.  I have arranged for us to be alone.. OH yes..  Yes..  Rushed home..  showered together, put on my pretty panties, and his shirt that is slinky and makes me feel sexy...  We ate a wonderful dinner..  I had seen all the toys laid out for play time.. my body was vibrating with excitement.. Until...  the dog began to bark fiercely...  letting us know, and intruder was here...  I again said, looking out the window.. The gods HATE me...  it's the air conditioning man.. who stayed till way past time.  Our friends kept our son busy, and sent the text..  just let us know..  We headed to the bedroom....

Only to have our daughter and son in law come over...  Yep.. I am sure of it now.. The gods HATE me.. and we just had to laugh... We snuggled into bed and I heard... I know it didn't turn out the way we wanted, but I so enjoyed your company...  and.. there is always Saturday...  Only the other son is coming home and NOT going with the youth group...  I'm not sure what kinda karma parents have, but it's kinda sucky.....

Only..  ya know what.. The Man is taking me to New Orleans for 5 count them 5 days.. NO kids..  and at that point, so far from home..  I can have sex and I don't care who hears...  Just sayin....

Saturday, April 12, 2014

I'm going In...

My BFF and I often say to one another when we are entering a daunting situation that is going to take significant skill and patience...  "I'm going in."  We have often laughed and said it sounds like a Military maneuver or that we have entered the dark world of spies.

It has been a rather busy month this month The Man has been gone.  I have managed to stay on the "Good Girl" side of this life..  (Oh please don't let me jinx myself as I have three days to go...)  It's always tough for me when he first gets home.  Especially on months like this one, when I have had to make lots of decisions, lots of chaos, and I have struggled not to shut him out completely.  I even asked him to give me daily tasks so that I can be mindful of his authority and leadership.
I miss my husband.  Communication has been hit or miss this time.  Let me tell you how badly that sucks.  Well it does.  I struggle with this vulnerability.  I don't want to lose me.  When did I become this woman who needs her husband?  I am not saying that I am not able to function.  I am.  I just don't like it.  I long for him.  I long for his arm over my hip as we settle into sleep.  I long for the last thing I hear before I drift off to sleep is, "I love you little Girl."  
I miss being over his knee.  (yeah, we are talking about Good Girl spankings here)  I miss the intimacy that it brings.  I miss the stress relief, and yeah.. I miss the "Hot monkey Sex" that comes with it.  I miss knowing that in our intimate relationship is the one place where I can completely let go and know that he is going to be there to catch me.  That I am loved, cherished, and well, he's yummy.
This weekend I am doing a reception for a close friend who is being ordained as  a Minister.  It's the first one I've done without my Aunt.  It makes me so sad.  As I got the table ready, pulled out decorations, all I could think of was her.  I even for the first time in a long time, called her phone so I could hear her voice.  I know grief is a process, but I wish it could move along a little?  Now, there is no one to call to bounce ideas off of, no one to send pictures to for approval.  No one to laugh with and giggle.  I miss her.
The weight front is going very well.  I love it.  I am trying to take care of myself, so that The Man doesn't have to spank me in a way I do NOT want.  I have been visiting the tanning bed (sun coffin according to my Aunt.)  And.. the good news is... The Man comes home on Wednesday...

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

Who Was That?

Have you ever had something happen and as you reacted to it, you felt like you were outside yourself watching?  (No, I am not going crazy, well not from this anyway)
Well boy howdy...  Anyone who has read my blog, knows that things with my mother can sometimes be complicated..  So.. let me give you the recipe for the tornado that happened Sunday.

1 part bipolar mother off of her meds for 3 weeks
1 part daddy who has been terribly sick and still feels bad
1 part daughter who had a terrible week
1 part granddaughter who expressed her opinion
3parts watching bipolar mother be hateful and ugly to sick daddy

When you least expect it, bipolar mother is hateful and ugly to the tired daughter over granddaughter (who happens to be MY daughter).   Daughter (me) tries to leave when the wind picks up.  And as is the way with tornadoes......

I literally felt like I was watching myself explain to my mother in no uncertain terms that I wasn't doing it the same way we had before, and that I wasn't going to stand by and watch her be mean to my Daddy ever again, or listen to 40 years of done me wrong, and really I don't remember everything I said other than the magic words in my family that signal that things are really bad....

I AM DONE!!!!!!!
You could have heard a pin drop.  I am so sorry that I upset Daddy, but I am not sorry for what I said.  I wasn't disrespectful, but I meant it.  I guess everyone realized I meant it.  My Mother came to my house and apologized.  I had cried all the way home, but was in better shape by the time Mother got to my house.  I love my folks.  I truly do, but I refuse to do the bipolar spiral the same way again.
Wish me luck..  Oh.. and The Man was really proud of me...
AND... as a side note, I got the TPR in court today that the little girl really needed.