No... It is NOT that time of the month... I don't have those anymore.. (and may I say thank you to the ladies to reminded me this was a very, very bright side to having the procedure done.)
It is tax time, but I don't handle that.
It's not my birthday, that is next month.
Anybody wanna guess? You know you do.. Inquiring minds and all that....
YUP... The Man comes home tomorrow. I am so excited. We have talked a lot while he has been gone. We have times that we focus on the kids while he is home. We have times that we focus on our friends and family. There are times we focus on the house.. and then.. there are times like this one, when it seems we are to focus on us. On our relationship, our intimacy, restoring our emotional tanks for one another. I love times like this.
I always get nervous, twitchy, unsettled right before he is to come home. You see, he is gone a month and home a month. For the month that he is gone, I am responsible for decisions made regarding the kids and our life. I talk with him when I can, I do my best to always think in terms of our rules and what he would want. When he comes home, it is my job to turn over the reins. It's not always easy. I love him home, want him here, miss him terribly. I would be lying if I didn't say there is a certain amount of freedom when he is gone. I don't have to plan for anyone but myself and the boys. They are in their older teens and I am not needed as when they were small.
I look forward to good girl spankings. They are the best. I love to reconnect. I am a spanko, there is just no denying and as much as I love the above type, I hate punishment. It is rather traumatic for me. I made a foolish error. Not one that he would have spanked me for until he realized how bad I felt that I had done it. I am one that guilt eats at me.. Anywho... I reached out to someone here on blogland because I felt I could help and I could be of assistance. That is soooo not the problem. The Man is the most generous person I know. The problem is that I did reach out, and gave out my personal number AND talked with her before I even said anything to him. My heart hurt for her, and I want to help. He does not have a problem and wants me to continue to help however I can. However, he was disappointed that I had gone against what I know he prefers. It is not a rule, but I was told that in the future his expectation was that I speak with him first. (if it sounds like a rule, looks like a rule, feels like a rule... well you get the notion)
I was really afraid he was going to ground me from my Blog and you guys. He didn't. in short, he said.. I just don't think that would be productive at all. He's great huh? I'm sorry, this one just kinda ended up rambling didn't it?