Thursday, January 30, 2014

I just Gotta share..

I have such good news.  I just wanna hug it tight, do the happy dance and ......



 
 
I have been so discouraged about my weight.  Then, I got the news of the Hashimoto's Disease, and the whole no gluten thing...
 
 
 
 
 
 
So... in the three weeks that I have been on a higher dose of medication, and two weeks of no gluten.....  wait for it.. wait for it....
 
 
 
  1. I am sleeping better
  2. My joints don't hurt
  3. Serious reduction in head aches
  4. Better focus
  5. No depression
 
 
 
 
AND
 
 
 
I HAVE LOST 12 POUNDS
 
 
 
Thanks for letting me share...
 
 



Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Let Me Tell You About My Day....

Wow.  All I can say is wow.  Most know that I work as a children's social worker.  I work hard, love my kids I work with and take advocating for them very seriously and to heart.

Today was court.  I had numerous cases.  Now, before I say this next part..  I don't mean to offend, and hope I don't.  We all have a part to play in this process we call, "the system".  One such part are attorneys.  They are called upon to advocate and represent their clients, I get that. (Grrr)

There is one attorney, and he is a real bear.  He can be rude, abrupt, verbally aggressive and insulting.  Now, I am of Irish and Cherokee origin...I am not what most folks call, demure...  Passionate - Yes, fierce- yes, strong sense of what is right- OH yeah...  but demure?  Not so much.

Anywho, (I really like that word)  I am known for giving as good as I get.  I am professional and conduct myself as such.  I do have this little, bitty, really minor, not much to even discuss flaw... 

 
 
 
 
I know that is absolutely shocking isn't it?  Who would have EVER even thought such a thing?  First of all, I am wondering how many of you are rushing to let me know in the comment section that you TOTALLY knew...  Now on to the story...
 
 
I sat down to a meeting with three male attorney's.  My attorney is very professional and conducts himself as a gentleman in all things. (He's a bit of a milk toast if ya know what I mean?)  Then there were the other two.  Well the one attorney started aggressively, then the other attorney was goading him, and then the F bombs started and the GD's started and then... out of nowhere, my clients attorney turned to me and spoke to me in the same fashion...
 
 
 
 
 
In times past, it would have been a free for all.  We would have been toe to toe.  I wouldn't have cursed, but it would have been a zoo.  However, since Dd, my first thought was, take a breath, stop!!! and think before you speak.  I lowered my voice, and spoke in a very calming, lady like manner and explained to him that I wanted to work with him, and wanted to come to an agreement, but that I had never treated him with anything but the utmost respect and only spoken to him in a manner in which I would want to be spoken to and I would appreciate the same respect and consideration, and then waited... for the fire works...
 
 
 
 
The two attorneys looked something like the above and the one who spoke to me apologized and we heard no more of the F word and the like.  I left out of that meeting, and my attorney praised my cool attitude and said, "You handled that very well."  I was shocked and so very pleased that Dd has helped me not only at home, but in other areas of my life.  


Monday, January 27, 2014

I needed to laugh today

It has been a tough Monday.  I have 5 cases in court tomorrow, one of the a termination of parental rights hearing.  Much on the line, so... I needed a laugh and I thought I would share this..






And mine and The Man's favorite...



I miss him so today.  He needs me over there, and I need him over here... It's pretty tough like this, but we have always been able to laugh together.  I will never, EVER look at a tent the same way again...

Monday, January 20, 2014

Learning New Things...

As most of you know, The Man works out of the country for a month and is home a month.  He made it home right before and I do mean RIGHT before the holidays began.  He left this morning.  He did the things that matter before he left. 

1.  He held me tight and told me that he loved me most.
2.  We talked about expectations (I do better KNOWING)
3.  He loved me well.
4.  This morning, before he left, he gave me the shirt he had worn for a few hours yesterday that smells like him...

During this month, I learned that it's okay to totally take the back seat so I can grieve.  In taking the back seat, I watched The Man, speak to my father about something that was very hurtful to me over the holidays.

I watched him look after me, take 100% responsibility for our sons.  I watched him go with our daughter for out patient surgery.

I watched him approach a new situation with confidence and calm control and it melted me like a puddle.

I stepped outside of the box, and advocated for The Man with the doctor.  You see, he is brilliant, My Man.  His brain is an amazing thing to watch.  He also struggles with ADHD, so very badly.  To the point it robs him of his self esteem and I can't stand that. So....  this time, when it was time for refills on his meds, we went together, and I explained what I saw, I want relief for my Hero, my Lover, my Friend.  I want him to know how awesome he is.

I might should have spoken with him beforehand, but it is such an embarrassment to him, that I didn't want to make things worse.  So, I jumped in.  The doc is making some changes for meds when home.

The Man is embarking on gluten free with me.  He doesn't have to, but he won't eat things in front of me that I can't have and love.  Now, it just doesn't get much better than that.

There were only good girl spankings this time, and they were well...  VERY Good....

Thursday, January 16, 2014

Life as I know is going to cease to Exist...

Sounds dramatic doesn't it?  Well, that's how I feel.  I just want to say before I rant, that I know I'm ranting.  I know all the good things.  Let me explain.  I have been diagnosed with a autoimmune disease called Hashimoto.  It causes my body to attack my thyroid.  It is the cause of many unhappy things in my life.  Just to name a few...

1.  Constant fatigue, including waking up exhausted
2.  Weight gain and the inability to lose it.
3.  Hair loss
4.  Low lying depression

There is some medication to assist.  It is life long, no cure, but not life threatening.  Much of it is can you guess?  Oh come on, you know you want to.  Did ANYONE see controlled by diet coming?  The main culprit here seems to be Gluten.  You know it's going to SUCK when the articles start out with, you are going to have to give up most everything you love.  Ya know things like


BREADS
SWEETS
PASTA

Now we all understand why I currently feel something like this...

 
 
 
I said to the man last night in my sweetest most innocent, like I can't believe you could possibly, I am just verifying there is NO WAY you would do this to me, 
 
 
ME:   "Is this going to be a spankable offense?"  We were discussing the new things WE were learning. 
 
 THE MAN: "Yes, but I am going to let you ease into, get used to it."  (Ya know like you get used to someone pulling your toenails off with pliers...) 
 
ME:  "What if I don't want it to be a spankable offense?  (Said in my most sorrowful, take pity on this poor addict...)
 
THE MAN:  "Well, this is your health we are talking about, and that is my number one priority, but again, I am going to let you ease into it, get used to it..."  (Do I need to do the toenail analogy again?)
 
 
Keep in mind this was said while he was making up my new vitamin regime.  Did I mention he is a reader, a researcher?  Just so happened he had one of those weekly pill thingy's, and had it made up in no time. 
 
 
I am happy to finally know what is causing me to feel bad, and that it isn't in my head.  This is going to be a MAJOR life change, much like being a diabetic.  It probably won't kill me to give up breads...  Oh hell, it may...  More likely, the paddle and I are going to be very close!!!  Much closer than I want, like ya know INTIMATE....  Cause let me be clear here, The Man is laid back, easy going, and we negotiate on lots... My health just doesn't EVER happen to be one of them...
 
 
 
 
Hmmmm.....  I think I saw an add for padded panties on one of our blogs....