How many of us as kids watched the cartoon Popeye? And how many of us remember his favorite line? " I yam what I am. " Well that is kind of where I find myself at this moment. I have watched our little slice of the world be rocked this week by the fever pitch of sensational journalism. I have watched and waited to see where it would take us.
I will be the first to admit that in my world, I have much to lose if we are "outted" so to speak. Would it be embarrassing? Yes. Would my family understand? No. Would I worry how people view this wonderful man I am married to? Yes. I am by nature an intensely private person by nature. I asked The Man if I should shut down the blog or go private. He said, no absolutely not. It is an outlet for you, and someone took a chance and put themselves out there so we could learn and not feel so alone.
Let me say, I understand the folks that have. Had The Man said, yes, it would have been gone. I would have been sad, but gone just the same. Part of this life is trusting our men to make the right decisions for our family with heavy input from us. So, if the HoH, Master, Dominant, Daddy, Sir, or just put in the name that fits for your relationship felt it was best then so be it. Or if the blog no longer brings you joy but fear and anxiety then by all means. This place is meant to be a balm, a port in a storm, a way to not feel alone.
Whatever decisions are made, my hope and desire is that we remain kind to one another, supportive of one another. It is good to debate, it is good to express our feelings, it is good to disagree, but it is not good to do amongst ourselves what has been done to us by media whoremongers hungry for a titillating piece of fluff to thrill the masses.
I love the comfort I have found here. Before I came to blogland, I felt so terribly alone. I felt like a freak. I worried and fretted that something terrible was wrong with me. I was damaged in some way that I craved my husbands authority and dominance. Then, I began to read, and timidly post comments. I have found acceptance, support and guidance from many here. That is what we are about. My fervent prayer is that it will continue to be just that.