Friday, October 12, 2012

Maybe NOT the best tiime for total Honesty

So, The Man is home.  WOOOOHOOOOO...  Strike up the band folks.  It has been a very difficult month.  I picked him up from the airport and home we went.  Unfortunately there was about three hours before the whole let's get this over with spanking could occur.  I did my best, I truly did, but the last 30 minutes was just torturous. 

SOOO.....  he's being kind as he's lecturing, and it goes something like this:

The Man:  I'm sorry that we are here, and I know that you are sorry that you smoked.

Me:  Actually, I'm not.  I'm sorry that you are upset and that I disappointed you, but I feel like I did what I needed to do to maintain my sanity.  Given the same set of circumstances, I would do it again.

(I KNOW.... I KNOW...  Where were all of you when my mouth was just running... running... running...)

The look of shock/surprise on his face would have been comical had I not been about to go over his knees.  He did however recover well.  I got the whole, thank you for your honesty, and he meant it.  Just as he meant what came after.  He was firm, he was kind, and I was spanked.

Yet, in the aftermath is when I could straddle his lap, and lay my head on his shoulder, and as he held me, whisper, "I'm sorry for my part in making things so bad between us."  Which opened the door for him to hold me tight and say back,"and I am sorry for mine." 

He has taken me away for the weekend.  My phone has been left at home and so has my computer.  I have had his undivided attention and it's been great.  Do we have talking to do?  Yes..  but The Man is taking me to the Zoo today... 

17 comments:

  1. Hope you are enjoying a fabulous weekend with your honey. Reconnection is a wonderful thing.

    Good for you in being honest and accepting the consequences. In today's world there isn't a lot of that - just blame.

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    1. It was awesome. Just amazing. I'm big on honesty...

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  2. Enjoy your weekend together! :)

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    1. Thanks Grace!! It was so awesome.

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  3. I'm glad the worst is over Dana. I feel like you're well on the road to healing now. Have a wonderful time together.

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    1. It was so amazing to have his undivided attention. Thanks Joanie.

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  4. Hi Dana :)

    I can so relate to the too honest thing. I have said before...I am NOT sorry, I am sorry you caught me... (eek!)

    It sounds like you both are on your way to a wonderful weekend together.

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    1. Oh how well I know.. It's like your mouth writing a check you butt has to cash... The weekend was awesome.. THANKS

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  5. aww!! I'm glad you could at least be honest! :) Have a FUN weekend!!

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    1. Glad to see you back JJ... It was amazing. Thanks.

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  6. Made me tear up there. I'm glad the waiting is over, and the weekend is going to be fabulous! Enjoy :)

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    1. The weekend was awesome. We took time to be just us. It was awesome June Thanks so much for your wisdom and kindness. It means alot to me.

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  7. Hey Dana - about had a heart attack when I read your answer about smoking but have to admire you for you honesty.

    It me made smile to read the apologies on both sides - yes there is talking to do, but the door has softly opened for the healing you both need.

    Hope you have a wonderful weekend together.

    Blessings,
    Cat

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    1. Yeah.. Life is much better... We are working Cat. Thanks for all your support. You are such a sweetheart.

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  8. I'm glad the Man is home and hope you both have a wonderful technology free weekend! You'll both heal the breach with love, and communication!

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    1. Girl... You got me in trouble..... hehehe... Apparently, The Man read your blog on getting spanked at Cracker Barrel. Good grief..... they learn from others... It has been an amazing weekend. Thanks C.

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  9. you know, the last time i smoked and told BIKSS (my significant other) he said that he understands that sometimes i'm gonna fall off the wagon - my answer was that i WANTED to. that it's not like i succumbed. but i made a choice to cos i didn't think it was that big a deal. oops.

    it's nice to meet you. i've seen your comments on some mutual friends' blogs :)

    come visit sometime.

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